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Do I Have to scream is a very beatuful song. It is by Zoegirl.It is one of my favourite songs and has helped through some tough times.

Ok my boyfriend is moving back to Canada and wants me to still be his girlfriend, but I said that I would stop cutting and I didn't. I don't want him to know but Idon't want to hide it from h im either what should i do?

Signed
Confused?

No prob if you ever want to talk you can always talk to me. I cut to and I know how difficult it is to stop. It's like a security blanket it helps me deal.

Yes i did and Iam really glad you like it.

thank you. I am glad you liked it.

no my boyfriend wrote it a couple months a go. I tell him you like it.

I understand what your going through life seems like it is not always worth living but in the end I think it might be. Please don't do anything. Everyone goes through tough times that are hard and stressful to deal with. Try talking to someone about how you feel. or maybe work out at the gym and put or anger or pain in to that.I hopeit helps.

I like my school and the most of the people but some of them are dishonest and can be very untrustworthy.

Aww Iam sure everything will be fine. He probably really misses you and your family. But you should be very proud of him he is a very brave man

Thanks Iam glad you liked it.

On the outside
I look like
I'm fine.
Like I"m holding it all together.

But on the inside - I'm
SCREAMING!

I'm trying to
scream loud
enough for you
to hear me,
But you can't.

No sound
escapes.

I wish you
could read
my mind.

I wish I
had the
strength
and courage
to tell you how
I feel.

I feel like nothing
matters -
my past I'd like
to erase

my future - is it
worth it?

my present - all
it is is surviving
one day to the
next - Just
surviving.

I'm tired, so
tired.

I think I deserve
relief - a break -
a feeling of safety.

1

FOR EVERY CHILD

For every child who cries at night

Alone with shame and fright

For every child who wants so much

To only feel a gentle touch

For the beaten cild, who cries in pain

Whose tears run silent, like the rain

For the child used to satisfy lust

Who never learns to love or trust

For the child taken from her/his home

And made to feel so all alone

For the child whose home is just a shell

Where life becomes a living hell

For the child who smiles but cannot feel

Because of scars too deep to heal

For every child who yearns for love

I hope and pray to God above

To hear your cries and heal your pain

And give you back your life again

Teddy, I've been bad again
My mommy told me so;
I'm not quite sure what I did wrong
But I thought you might know.

When I woke this morning
I knew that she was mad
Cause she was crying awful hard,
And yelling at my dad.

I tried my best to be real good
And do just what she said
I cleaned my room all by myself,
I even made my bed.

But I spilled milk on my good shirt,
When she yelled at me to hurry
And I guess she didn't hear me,
When I told her I was sorry

Cause she hit me awful hard, you see,
And called me funny names;
And told me I was really bad
And I should be ashamed.

When I said "I love you Mommy",
I guess she didn't understand;
Cause she yelled at me to shut my mouth,
Or I'd get smacked again

So, I came up here to talk to you
Please tell me what to do
Cause I really love my mommy,
And I know she loves me, too

And I don't think my mommy means,
To hit quite so hard;
I guess sometimes, grown ups forget
How big they really are

So Teddy, I wish you were real
And you weren't just a bear
Then you could help me find a way
To tell mommies everywhere

To please try to understand
How sad it makes us feel;
Cause the outside pain soon goes a way,
But the inside never heals

And if we could make them listen,
Maybe the'd understand;
So other children just like me
Wouldn't have to hurt again

But, for now, I guess I'll hold you tight,
And pretend the pain's not there.
I know you'd never hurt me,
So goodnight, Teddy Bear...

I love you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end.

Hey Angelless your poems dont suck their really good. Your an amazing writer.

I totallt agree dont worry what any one else thinks. Its your life live it the way you want to. If your bi that should be cool with yur parents. Parents shouldnt disown their child because of their sexuality.

These pictures are wonderful. keep drawing maybe it will help.

(I found this poem on the web, its by Kayliegh she leaves in the United Kingdom)
Dark red
Trickles
Trickles down her arm
A special little secret
Known as self harm

Fiery red
Anger
Builds up deep inside
She's got to let these feelings out
But to who can she confide

Dark silver
Blade
Is the one that she trusts
The one that she turns to
When life becomes too much

Long white
Sleeves
To cover her pain
Hide her relief
Hide the cuts again .)

It is really good. You could seriously be a writer. This reminds me alot what Im going through write now and it makes me smile not to know that you feel the same(pain is your friend) but because now I truely know that their are others just like me.
I hope to read more of your poems.

Wow this poem is really good. I like it alot and I think it means more and touches more peoples hearts because it clearly came from you heart.

I dont really have any advice but I think I have a good idea about how you feel, when a memory from the past keeps haunting you in you dreams and makes you more emotional than you thought possible. Maybe you should try talking to a parent or a friend maybe they can help you figure out what to do so you can get a good nights sleep and so your grades dont suffer. I hope you can find the help you need and I hope this helps.

Wow I didnt know that. Thats kind of creepy.

I know what you mean is something that happens alot at r school and its really annoying.